well i guess i have to post cuz xanga is FINALLY cleaning up shit and deleting users that haven't posted in like forever...which i think they should have done a LONG TIME AGO but whatever...

...got a new apartmnet...yeah, i'm moved out...mum is leaving dad...big fight...pfa got involved for a little bit, but it's dropped now...new piercings [which i shall take pics of and post one my webcam decides to stop acting goofy]...in love with pinhead...and now i'm 20...yeah, i guess that's pretty much it...

ahhhhh, i'm just stressing so much. it's driving me crazy. well, crazy-er.

just over little tiny things, too, like time...i usually set my alarm clock for a certain time so i can wake up, reset it, and go back to sleep...kinda helps me in the whole waking up process. i've done this for a while, so i pretty much have it down to a science, i know how much time i need to give myself to get ready. well, lately, it's like i wake up initially, reset the alarm, and then just wallow in anxiety, thinking stuff like, "am i giving myself enough time?" and "will i be able to get ready?"..."what time is it, now?"..."no, no, i have plenty of time"..."at least, i hope i do"..."what time is it, again?"

i think it's this whole looking for a new place so i can move out and take a big step in life thing. i just...i dunno, i've just never ever been trained to live life outside the confines of my parents house...so little things that i'm sure you guys don't even think twice about, i'm worrying over, wondering if i'm going to remember all of this. just little things, too, those are really the things that are worrying me the most, for some reason.

i just don't wanna screw this all up.